keep holding on;; anabelle

[ariella evelyn davies]

The idea that she was sitting in an office with an actual job at hand was something that scared the hell out of Ari. For pretty much the majority of her life she had known that she was going to play professional Quidditch. She grew up outside, participating in a mixture of sports and other athletic endeavors, which she had naturally excelled at and which eventually developed into a skill with Quidditch. The ease with which the sport had come to her had been a sign that she was meant to be doing that and nothing else with her life. The sport meant everything to her as a younger child and even more so now that she had grown. It wasn't just a career to Ari, it was so much more than that. It was her life. It gave her a family in her team and gave her a confidence in herself that nothing else ever had been able to do. And yet, here she was, sitting at a desk.

Ari was not the type of person that could sit down and stay still for very long and that had been quite a problem back when she had been attending school. Now that she was the one that was supposed to be teaching, it was even more of a problem. She had been sitting and staring at a blank page of lessons plans for nearly an hour now and she still had no idea what she wanted to do with her classes. She wasn't meant to be a teacher, she was meant to be out there playing the game. The patience and understanding required to teach the younger students and even some of the older ones, just wasn't something that Ari had ever developed. However, she knew that this was something that she had to do and that if she didn't pull it off, everything that she cared about it life would be taken away from her, just like that. As resilient and tough as Ari could be, the odds of her recovering from something like that were slim to none. Her career was her life and taking that away would be the death of her.

Sighing in frustration as she once again scribbled out the last few words she had written, Ari threw her quill to the side and leaned back in her chair. Perhaps a break would do her good and let her mind rest a bit before jumping into any more work. Shuffling her papers around, she put them into a haphazard pile to be dealt with at some point in the future. Swiveling about, she picked up her broom, which was pretty much always with her, no matter where she went, and looked it over for a moment. As per usual, it was the only thing in her possession that was dutifully taken care of and kept in pristine condition. While she was typically a complete mess, this was one point on which she was inflexibly serious about. It was, quite possibly, the only thing that she had ever kept from destruction for more than a few weeks and of that, she was quite proud.

Leaving from her office, she locked the door behind her and lazily began to wander away from the Quidditch pitch. It would have seemed natural for Ari to instantly hop on her broom and start her own personal training on the pitch right then, but when she looked over, there was already a couple of students practicing. Somewhat irritated by the lack of her own personal pitch to practice on, Ari settled for just waiting until they left, heading instead over to the lake. She had frequented the shores of the Black Lake many a time back when she was a student there, so an trip to lounge about by the lake seemed like a decent enough distraction from the work at hand. After all, any reason to get out of working on stupid things like lesson plan was a good reason.

With a bounce to her step, Ari walked over to the far side of the lake, her broom trailing after her. It was calm and peaceful, not at all something that Ari was quite fond of. She was used to huge stadiums full of screaming fans or the thump of music pounding in her ears as she danced in a crowded club. The near barrenness of the setting was almost unsettling for her, but not entirely unwelcome. Of course, she would much rather have been somewhere surrounded by people, but it was certainly a step up from sitting alone in her office. Though, not much. Kicking off her shoes, she ran over to the edge of the water, sitting down and sliding her feet in, swirling them about slightly as she watched the water move. Oh how she wished she was back with Puddlemere.

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[annabelle]

Anna was out for a walk. She loved the outdoors and the fresh air. It was so much better than being cooped up indoors. She wondered if it was possible to have classes outside instead of inside. That way she would get to learn and be outside in the fresh air. She wondered why she found the outdoors so relaxing. Maybe it was the peace and quiet. Everything was always much quieter outside than it was inside the castle. Inside the castle it was crowded with students and was obnoxiously loud. Students constantly causing trouble and having to be put in their place.

She was stressed. Prefect duties have been overwhelming and she had a lot of work. She was 3rd best in her class. It was still pretty good. But when it came to grades she was an overacheiver. She felt the need to be an overacheiver. She had to let her parents be proud of something. She started this hard work a month after Ari left to become a Quidditch Player. Anna hated Ari for doing that to her. How could she be so selfish! Ari never hung out with Anna. To Anna family was extreemely important. She lost Ari and lost every connection to her that she had. She wondered what would've happened if Ari never became a professional quidditch player. Would they still be close.

Anna didn't think so. She and Ari had too many differences. Anan knew she was being selfish and spiteful, but who could blame her? Ari was Anna's older sister. Anna was supposed to look up to her. But no, that wasn't how it went. Anna always knew she was smarter and more responsable. That Ari needed to learn a lesson from her. The two girls never really got along that well but it still hurt to lose Ari. She was still family, even though she didn't act like it, she still was. So naturally Anna cared a lot about her. But Anna stopped thinking about it. Ari was off somewhere having a blast and not spending a minute to think of her family. Anna had to stop feeling sorry for herself. She talked about this subject enough, no need to make it crowd her mind.

But right then she saw Ari, at the Black lake. She must've been imagining it, hallucinating! Ari wasn't there, she couldn't be. But she was. Anna wasn't sure she should be happy at her sister being there or angry. Why was she there? What did she even want? She never cared, what use would she have at Hogwarts? Anna knew she had to get to the bottom of it. If she didn't the questions would eat her alive and drive her insane. She walked over to the black lake her heart pounding. She hadn't seen her sister in years. She was more beautiful than she remember. She wondered if her maturity level increased. Would Ari even recognize her own sister?

She stood next to her sister and turned to face her. "Hey Ari." she said quietly with a smile. "It's good to see you. It really has been a while" she said awkwardly twirling her brown hair around her finger. She couldn't bring herself to ask why she was there. Why question something this great? but was it great? Did Anna really want her here to remind her of all the pain she went through without her sister. But she still felt a clump in her throat. She felt like she was about to cry. She wasn't sure if it would be of happiness or of sadness.

[ariella evelyn davies]

As much as Ari absolutely adored the outdoors, the quiet that surrounded her felt as if it were trying to suffocate her. Ari was loud in everything that she did, it was just a fact about her that couldn't be helped and to sit there in the near silence, just waiting for someone to come along to save her, it was no surprise that she was fighting off the effects of potential crazy. Well, she could already be classified as a bit of a crazy, but the effects of the silence certainly didn't help it any and perhaps even compounded on her rather intense personality. It was probably a good thing that, at present, no one else was around to feel the effects of that increased level of psycho in the young woman. Even though she was now a professor, she certainly couldn't claim that she was some sort of reformed and tamed person. If anything, she was probably even more rule-breaking now than she was before she had become a professor and that was certainly cause to worry.

Of course, though she had expected to be mostly alone for awhile, that wasn't to be the case. Technically, considering the fact that she was in a rather open spot where any of the students or professors could have come upon her, she probably should have realized that being interrupted was a likely occurrence. Even then, however, the last thing that she would have expected was to see Anabelle. It had been just about six months since she had even been in contact with anyone in her family and probably longer than that since she'd seen Anna at all. Ari had never been the most family oriented of people, but even she had spent time with her siblings before her professional career had taken off. In fact, she'd actually been rather close to both of her siblings. That was not to be true, however, once she had joined up with Puddlemere.

The fame and fortune that had come with her newfound position had jaded Ari to the world and warped her vision of things to the point where she was no longer the same person. Sure, she'd always been a bit out there, a drinker and partier and a definite whore, but when thrown into a fast paced life of celebrity status, it had just gotten worse. Before long, it had gotten to the point where if she didn't spend the days training and the nights partying, it just wasn't a good day. That, of course, led to her family relations becoming quite strained and she spent less and less time with them over the last few years of her life, until eventually it was just once every few weeks that she bothered to shoot them an owl to catch up. Even those were usually just a scrawled message on the back of a napkin or something and were hardly enough to count.

And then, things had changed again. The shaky relationship that she'd had with her family fell to nothing the moment that she was attacked. The story of her attack was hidden from all but her closest friends and even they didn't know the entire story. Only Ari herself carried the weight of that night around on her shoulders. The attack had sent her to St. Mungo's to recover for weeks. Weeks in which she suffered, dealing with the changes to her bloodline and the possibility that she may never play Quidditch again. Quidditch was her life and losing that would have been as if she was losing her life. However, she had gotten lucky. Well, as lucky as one could be considered having gone through an experience such as that. Her career could come back, her coach supported her through it, but it would take time. It would take at least a year for her coach to let her back, since it would take at least that long for her to adjust to her new lifestyle.

Holding back whatever comments wanted to flow from her lips the moment that Ana started to talk, Ari glanced back down at the water for a moment to gather her thoughts. She didn't know what to say, just yet. All that time that there was between them just made things even worse. Not to mention, Ari didn't want to see there. Family was something of a sore spot for her. She loved them, of course, more than anything, but she was dangerous and being around them could lead to things that Ari would rather avoid. Were they to be around more often, there was a chance that the truth could come out. The general public knew nothing of the fact that she was now a werewolf and if that came out, she would be over.

It took her a moment before she could look back over at Ana, a rather blank expression on her face. "Yeah, guess it's been awhile," she replied with a light shrug. Not a very eloquent response and certainly not an opening into the many topics that the two of them had between them to discuss, but at least it was a response. " 'spose it's alright to see you too." Again, not a friendly response, but that could hardly be expected from Ari. While she was very outgoing and tended to be friendly with most everyone, it was different with the people that she cared about. With them, she wasn't sure how to act and often came off as cold or bitchy, since she was harder on them than on anyone else.

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[annabelle]

Anna felt anger build up inside her at Ari's response. It had been 6 months and that was all she had to say! Ari didn't even miss her! How could she be so cold and cruel to her very own sister? They were family, they were supposed to love each other no matter what! But that wasn't the case now. How could Anna have the strength to love and care for Ari if she didn't even bother returning those feelings. They weren't extreemely close, but they still were close. Anna wondered if Ari even knew anything about her life. Did she even care about her? Would it affect Ari in any way if Anna was hurt or near death. Anna got those thoughts out of her head. She was being too dramatic.

She always hoped and dreamed about the day Ari would return to visit. She wanted hugs and grand stories of the famous life. But she was too naive to think that. She should've known this was what she was going to get. Not even an "I missed you" or anything like that. Ari was treating her like a stranger. Like they weren't even related. Anna sort of wished she wasn't related to Ari. It would make life so much less painful. But she knew she had to hold it in. She couldn't cry, it would show weakness. She would save the tears for later. She also couldn't get angry, it would only make their relationship worse than it was. She had to try and be civil. But Anna couldn't find it within herself to be civil with her sister. It was like they were born to fight. After the way Ari treated her, she needed to return the hostility.

"You suppose it's alright to see me! It's been 6 months, and you didn't even miss me. And here I was, missing the days that we actually talked to one another. That you actually cared for me!" Anna said her voice cracking. "But no, you were off playing quidditch, breaking this family apart!" Anna said her voice rising slightly. She knew she had to calm down. This wasn't going to help. Sure she might have been a bit harsh and overdramatic. But once she started, she always had problems stopping. She had to let her feelings out. Let Ari know how it pained her. But what was the point? Nothing she could say would change anything between them. The damage was already done.

She looked away awkwardly. "I'm sorry, I have no idea where that came from." she said quietly forcing the apology out. There was still a small chance to change things. Anna had to be forgiving to her sister. But what if her sister didn't apologize. What if she wasn't sorry for any of it? Anna knew she shouldn't think that way. It wouldn't help at all. She looked up at her sister again. Just stared at her for a minute her heart pounding. There was something different about her. Something she couldn't put her finger on. Anna would get to the bottom of it, no matter the costs. She had to find out what has changed about her sister. And she wasn't just paranoid, something was different. First step was to find out why Ari was even at Hogwarts.

"Why are you here?" she asked. It came out more coldly than she intended it to. What business would Ari have at Hogwarts. She obviously wasn't here to pay her little sister a visit. What reason could there be? There was one thing that Anna hoped wasn't true. It would make school so much painful. Having Ari there in the halls, reminding her of their broken friendship. But why would Ari be interested in an actual job. She had quidditch, unless she did something that got her kicked off the team. Another thing she had to find out. Maybe Ari was hiding a lot of secrets from Anna. More than she could ever imagine to be held.

[ariella evelyn davies]

To be honest, Ari wasn't sure what she was expecting out of Anabelle. Certainly, she shouldn't be expecting a very warm reception after it had been so long, but at the same time Ari was still pretty sure that no matter what she did, Anabelle wouldn't care and would still come back to her. She was egotistical to the point that the idea of anyone disliking her for any reason just seemed ridiculous. Even with all the things that she had or well, more so the things that she hadn't done, to Anabelle, the possibility that the girl might be even somewhat upset with her just didn't occur to Ari. She knew that Anabelle was much more family oriented than she was and that it meant much more to her than it ever would to Ari, which implied to Ari that there wouldn't be any problems.

In fact, the only problem that Ari could see coming out of this would be if Anabelle really was looking to rekindle some lost relationship. It wasn't that Ari didn't like her, since she loved her like any sister should, it was the fact that Ari couldn't let herself get close to people anymore. She knew that she was dangerous to people now that she was a werewolf and she wasn't about to risk that. Sure, she knew that it only came about once every month and only for one night at that, but even just that was too much for Ari to risk. Even if, a lot of the time, she came off like she didn't care about the people that she had relationships with, it was the exact opposite. It was because she cared that she pushed them away. Unfortunately for Ari, they didn't ever see it the same way. Until she could come clean and tell them why she was really acting the way she did as of late, they wouldn't get it. However, Ari was willing to live with those consequences, as long as she wasn't posing a danger to the people she cared about.

When Anabelle started to go off on her, Ari's eyes flicked up in surprise. She wasn't used to being yelled at. In fact, the only people that ever yelled at her were her coach and teammates at practice, but even that was just friendly banter. This was different. This was a serious anger coming out of her younger sister and for a moment, Ari was taken aback. From pretty much as long as she could recall, she didn't ever remember Anabelle yelling at her like this and it sucked. She didn't want it to be like this, but she knew that this was the price she had to pay for a night of negligence. A night that, unfortunately, had changed her life in every way imaginable and none for the better.

Biting down on her lip to keep from mouthing off right back, Ari waited for a moment before saying anything. In this case, she thought it was probably best to simply let Anabelle's anger play out and then respond with as little emotion as possible. It wouldn't make things better, but at least, she hoped, it wouldn't make them any worse and even if it did, that was probably for the best anyways. "That's not what I said, but alright," she replied with a shrug. Perhaps it was best if Anabelle clung to the anger that she felt towards Ari, since that would make it easier for Ari to simply shred any remaining ties that she felt towards the girl. A difficult task, without a doubt, but it had to be done. Cutting any serious relationships out of her life was the first step to soothing her fear that she might hurt someone. If there was no one there, no one could possibly get hurt.

The thing that bothered Ari the most about what Anabelle said was the fact that she was blaming this on Quidditch. Quidditch was her sport and sometimes it was as if she loved it more than she loved her family, or even herself. Certainly, that wouldn't be too far from the truth. Quidditch meant everything to the young woman and to hear her sister blame it for whatever problems they may have had was enough to bring a rise of anger. "Don't put this on my career. That has nothing to do with fucking anything, okay?" Ari said, the scorn coming out in her voice as she spoke. If there was a way to get Ari upset, it was to insult Quidditch and Anabelle probably should have known that.

She snorted a bit as Anabelle apologized, since she didn't really expect her to. Ari herself wasn't the type to apologize and certainly wouldn't have bothered if the positions were reversed. However, in truth, Ari was the one that had things to apologize for. As much as she wanted to place the blame for her estrangement from her family on her attack, it had started long before that and it was all on her. They'd tried to keep things up, they'd sent letters and such, but Ari had more or less ignored it. After she'd moved out and into, pretty much a frat house, with her team, the rest of the world had become dead to her. "Yeah, no. Let it out," Ari replied, once again failing to let any emotions play into her responses. The less invested she let herself be, the easier it was to not care.

Ari knew that she should have been expecting the last question. It was only inevitable that she would wonder what the hell Ari was even doing there at the castle. "It's a charity thing. They needed a flying professor," Ari answered. A lie on most points, though it was at least true that they had needed a professor. "Obviously, I'm the best for the job. Some shit to promote my image or whatever." Ari had been telling lies for sixth months about why she had stepped down for a year from the team and by now, they just flowed from her as if they were actually true. Hell, sometimes even she came to believe herself when she was telling people. The more that she said it, the more she came to believe that perhaps it was true, even when she knew that it never would be.

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[annabelle]

Anna sighed when Ari swore at her. Maybe she didn't have the right to blame Ari's career for what happened. It wasn't the career's fault. It was the person who changed. It seemed like Ari wanted to argue. Like she wanted Anna to be mad at her and not forgive her. But that was ridiculous. Why would she want Anna mad at her. Didn't she want to be on good terms again? Was Anna the only one that wanted her family back together again. She wouldn't be surprised if she was. Why did she have to care so much about her family? A better question was why did this even have to happen? Ari never used to be like this with Anna. It was like she was different than before. She changed a lot, but why did she? Was the fame getting to her?

She mentioned quidditch not having anything to do with it. "Really, it doesn't? Then what prevented you from having contact with us?" she asked. The only thing that would prevent that was her business and her career. Anna sighed. "Look, I didn't mean to insult you or your career. I am proud of how you actually made it this far. But I guess it would've been nice to know more about what was going on in your life. It would've been nice to have an older sister to talk to about things." Anna said trying to calm down the tension a bit so they could actually talk without the yelling and the fighting. So Anna could actually catch up. There had to be a way to fix their relationship.

But Ari had Anna confused. She just went from defensive to emotionless. How did that happen? Since when was Ari not passionate about things. Since when did she become an emotionless blob who didn't care about anything in the world. That wasn't the Ari that she remember. Fame didn't do that to you. It may increase ego and stuff but Anna knew that fame didn't cause someone to stop caring about things that they used to care about. What happened that Anna didn't know about. What event was Ari hiding from her that changed her that much into a completely different person? There was a lot of things that could've happened to her sister. It must've been something bad to cause this huge change. Did their parents know about this? Would they even be concerned about it or think that Anna was paranoid?

Anna raised her eyebrows at what Ari said. "Did they actually hire you?" she asked doubtfully. Maybe it came out rudely. Anna didn't intend it to but it did. Why wasn't she happy? Why was she sort of dreading it? Maybe it was because of Ari's behaviour in school. "I can't imagine you as a teacher. Do you think you will be able to handle it. It is a lot of responsability you know." Anna warned her sister. Anna knew she shouldn't be judging her sister. Her sister was older now, she must've became a bit more mature. It was just hard to see Ari teaching students. Then again it was flying class, it wasn't a major inportant subject that affected their future. Anna hoped Ari knew that she would have to stop all these irresponsable activities that she usually did.

[ariella evelyn davies]

Perhaps, were Ari a little less immature, she might have felt a bit bad about the fact that she was cursing out her younger sister. However, she wasn't and so she didn't. Ari was the type that didn't care who she was around and would act like a fool no matter what. She didn't care that she was a bad influence to the younger generation and that she cursed like a sailor around the young ones. Hell, she wasn't their parent, so it wasn't like it was her problem. It was precisely this attitude that made it a surprise that she was even allowed to be the professor for flying here at Hogwarts. Though, she was fairly certain that a lot of that had to do with the fact that she's quite close with the son of the Headmaster and had probably slept with him on more occasions that one. Or perhaps because the Headmaster himself was awed by her skills and beauty. Either way, Ari was quite pleased with the fact that she had the job now. It was much better than doing absolutely nothing the next few months, that was for sure.

There was no doubt in Ari's mind that she couldn't tell the truth in this moment and so, she worked on finding a lie. For the past sixth months, that's all she had been able to do and the lies had been building up and snowballing into something bigger each day. She didn't even know if they would ever stop or even that they could stop. Even today, after the wars and everything that had gone on, werewolves were discriminated against. They were hated, treated as half-breeds and generally just shunted to the slums of society and Ari couldn't handle that. She was addicted to fame and being at the top of society was something that she now lived for. Her picture being taken, articles about her in the Prophet, everything that went along with it and she knew that if her secret were to come out, that would be done. She would be forced, by the public, out of her career and essentially, her life would be over.

Taking a moment to think of some reason, whatever reason she could really, Ari's head slumped down to rest on her knees. "What the fuck does it even matter? I mean, honestly, if you want to know what I'm up to, read the fucking paper. I'm in it pretty much every day. It's like a running commentary on my life," Ari grumbled, her voice dripping with a sickening sweetness that revealed a much deeper and serious affliction to her words. Though Ari hated to have to do it, she knew that lying to Anabelle about everything right now was a necessary thing. In fact, at present, she didn't think that it would ever come to the point where she would share what had happened with her sister. Hell, she hadn't even been truthful with most of her close friends. She could count the number of people that knew the real story on one hand.

Even though the doubt in Anabelle's voice when she asked about the situation of being hired was perfectly warranted, Ari still felt slightly offended. "What the hell is that supposed to mean? Of course they hired me. Why the fuck wouldn't they? I'd say I'm pretty damn well qualified to teach some snotty little bitches how to fly," Ari snapped, her voice taking on a much harsher tone than she had intended. As much as she wanted to keep her emotions out of it, it didn't seem like that was something that she would be able to bring herself to do. She was an extremely emotional person in that when she felt something, you knew it. If she was mad, you'd feel her wrath and if she was happy, you'd be smothered by her exuberance.

And then came the r word. Anyone that knew Ari knew that responsibility wasn't something that she handled well. When out with the Quidditch team, she had a crew of people that were specifically assigned to make sure that she did precisely what was needed of her. They made sure that she kept her appointments, kept her from getting too much bad press with her drunken antics and generally looked after her well-being. Here, however, she was alone. And even Ari didn't know how well she could handle it. "Fuckin' right I can handle it. I'm not a child, Anabelle," Ari pointed out. Though, she acted more like a child than Anabelle did and quite often, it seemed like Anna was the elder sibling.

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[annabelle]

Anna glared as her sister replied. "Yeah, well if you haven't noticed newspapers aren't the most reliable sources. But I guess it is reliable about you considering all the scandals that are written." she said coldly. Anna didn't know what to think of Ari. She wasn't the same. Now she was some slutty, irresponsable, cold-hearted bitch. Did Anna even want someone like that in her life? It would be much easier to just forget about Ari. Forget that she was even born. What good has Ari ever done except bring pain and shame to the family. Anna was surprised with herself. She was never this hateful, especially to her family. But Ari was causing something to snap. 6 months of hatred and now it was all coming out. All the surpressed anger that she had kept inside her. It was coming out and was uncontrollable.

Ari asked why they would hire her, while having some coarse language in the sentence. "That's why. Do you hear yourself. Swearing in every sentence. I wonder how the Headmaster will feel if he hears you cussing off at your 'bitch' students!" Anna said. She had never been this angry and frustrated with anyone in her life. Out of everyone she could've been having this conversation with, it was her sister. Anna knew she had to calm down. She should leave and cool off. Come back to her sister when she was actually calm. But that would be a waste of time. She was going to end up in this state anyways. Might as well embrace her anger and let it out.

Anna glared at her sister. "You sure act like one! Walking around getting drunk and sleeping with every male that has legs!" she said coldly. Showing that she could be as much as a bitch as her sister if she wanted to. The one thing she had in common with her sister. She acted exactly like her when she was angry. She was at the point that she would say anything. That she didn't care how it hurt her. Anna was just sick of her sister. She wished that she wasn't staying. She didn't have enough emotional control to see that bitch every day. Especially since some of her friends admired her sister. Would they be on Ari's side instead of hers. Anna started to feel scared.

She glared at her sister so much to say to her, but no way to get them out in words. She wanted to be the bigger person, but that was out of the question now. She was never going to forgive Ari for what she had done. Even though there wasn't anything specific that happened. No matter how much Ari apologized, Anna wouldn't forgive her. But why would Ari even apologize? She was a selfish bitch who didn't care about anyone but herself. Anna always tried to give excuses to prove that she was a good person. But she was done with that. There was nothing good about Ari. There never was and never will be!

[ariella evelyn davies]

To be quite frank, the newspapers generally did a fairly decent job at keeping track of Ari and her life. Perhaps the only thing that they didn't show were the seriously personal things, such as her attack, but that was to be expected. Ari was the type of person that was loud and proud of it, so she had no problem hamming it up for the cameras and reporters as they followed her about. In fact, she was quite fond of the newspaper correspondent that had been assigned to keeping tabs on her and sometimes sent the girl messages to tell her where to keep an eye out for her. Ari lived to be known and that bit of fame that she was able to get whenever she was in the papers was always exciting. Rarely did she actually put forth the time to read what they said, but she knew she was there and that was what mattered.

A slight smirk arose on her face as Anabelle mentioned the papers and she looked over at her with a shrug. "Yeah, pretty much. I'm pretty scandalous, I'd say," she said with a nod. She wasn't embarrassed by it at all. Hell, she'd been a crazy ever since her later years at Hogwarts and though it was slightly worse than before, most people wouldn't say that they were surprised by her actions. Ari's "moral compass" had never really been too on point and more often than not, her views on what was acceptable were so completely off the norm that society had deemed proper that it became inevitable for her to show up in the papers as some sort of "scandal." Though, in Ari's mind, it was all just a part of life, really.

Her nose crinkled up irritably when Anabelle made a comment about her language. She'd never been the most eloquent of speakers and cursing just came out whenever she spoke, no matter who it was to. Of course, to most people that would seem to be a problem, but not so much to Ari. "The Headmaster knows me. Actually, we're pretty damn close, if you must know, so he should be expecting such things," Ari replied, irritably. Besides, if the small ones were to get anywhere with a Quidditch career, than this was the kind of treatment they'd have to get used to. Professional leagues were a whole different game than this child's play at Hogwarts and Ari felt that she was perfectly qualified to teach them that. Of course, they were young and perhaps the harsh treatment that was reserved for the professionals wasn't exactly the best of ideas, but she'd make it work. Maybe.

Walking about, getting drunk and having sex...yeah, that pretty much described a good day in the life of one miss Ari Davies. Again, not something that she would ever consider to be a problem in any sense of the word, though certainly everyone else seemed to. Obviously, they just didn't understand the basics of life if they were against such things. "Close, darlin', but I certainly don't sleep with all the men I meet. Just the good looking ones," she replied with a smirk. Of course, Ari probably did sleep with most of the men that she came into contact with, simply because it was something to do and something she found to be quite fun most of the time. Sex essentially meant nothing to her, aside from another night of good times. Right good role model she was.

Letting out a bit of a yawn as the conversation continued, Ari kicked back and rested on her back, her face taking in the sun that was beating down on them. "Y'know kid, you need to live a little. Maybe if you were a little more like me, you wouldn't be so uptight about everything," she commented, rather offhandedly. She didn't see what the big deal was or why Anabelle was taking everything so hard. It wasn't like she'd really done anything, exactly, she'd just kind of drifted out of the family zone and into her new life. It was bound to happen eventually, anyways. They'd all grow up, start families, or well, the other two would at least. Ari, most likely, would never actually grow up and the idea of starting a family or settling down was disgusting to her. She liked herself just as she was.

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[annabelle]

Anna crossed her arms. "A lot would say so also." she said. Anna just thought what she was doing. She was acting like her mother. The worst thing anyone could ever do. Anna knew exactly who to blame for this. And that was Ari for being the worst person who had ever hit the planet. Sure, that was extreemely overdramatic, but it was true. "But of course you wouldn't mind. Because you love attention. That's all you want in life. You think fame and popularity is everything. Well news flash: It's Not!" Anna said. Maybe she was just being selfish. The only reason she was mad at Ari was because she left her. That was pretty selfish reason to be mad. But she was mad because Ari was also selfish, so they were basically even with each other.

Anna raised her eyebrows when Ari said being close. And how did she get that close? Having sex with him! Ari wouldn't go that low. Maybe with a relative but not with the headmaster himself. Maybe he was using ari as an example to how he doesn't want his students to turn out. Anna was looking to the day were Ari slept with a student and got fired. That her life would be ruined. Who would be the one all high and mighty then? But Anna felt guilty for thinking like that. Ari was her sister, she was supposed to be there for her through thick and thin. And even though Ari wasn't there for her, Anna still felt as if she should be there for her sister. It would be the only right thing to do.

Anna gave a smirk. "So only sleep with the hot guys. How profound. What a great life lesson you have there." Anna said sarcastically. She was naturally a sarcastic girl. "So even if the guy is a total jerk you still sleep with him because he's hot. There is more to a person than looks you know." Anna told her sister. Anna wasn't saying looks didn't matter. Because they really did. Anna would love to go out with a hot guy. But if he was a complete jerk then she wouldn't want to. Of course that didn't matter to her sister. As long as he had a good body or face, he was worthy of her time. Ari's going to stay a single slut all her life. Anna thought to herself. She wanted to say it but she couldn't find it within herself to do so. That would make her seem like the enemy.

Anna rolled her eyes at Ari. "Oh yes Ari, I want to be exactly like you. You are perfect, beautiful, and all around amazing. You are my perfect role-model and the role-model of many." Anna said mockingly in admiration. Never in a million years would she mean the statement she just made to her sister. And Anna could get loose if she wanted to. She wasn't extreemely uptight. She only was around people like Ari. She knew how to have fun with her best guy friend Felix. She never drank but she could still be fun when she wasn't drunk. If Ari actually took the time to know Anna, she was sure Ari would enjoy hanging out with her. But that expectation was something that was too high. Something she didn't want to get her hopes up for just to get them crushed.

[ariella evelyn davies]

Ari found it rather impossible not to be slightly amused by the whole situation. Technically, she shouldn't have found it funny in any way, as it was a rather serious situation that could determine a lot about the relationship that she was to have with her sister in the future. If there even could be a relationship there ever again. What with Ari's determination to cut out anyone that means anything to her in her life as of late, it wasn't exactly looking good for the two of them. Ari knew how to be polarizing. She knew exactly what to do to make people dislike her and that was precisely what she found herself doing to Anabelle. Honestly, Ari wasn't usually this bad. In fact, she was downright friendly around most people, if a bit oblivious when she did happen to say something wrong. This, this was a side of her that only came out when she was purposely trying to be destructive, or when she was particularly angst-ridden during the full moon.

Did Ari think that fame was everything? No. Did she absolutely fucking love it? Hell. Yes. Ari was in the sport for the love of the game and anyone that tried to argue differently just didn't understand just how passionate she really was about it. Of course, the added perk of being popular around the globe certainly didn't hurt. "Perhaps not, but it's certainly nice," she commented with a shrug. She wasn't really in the mood to argue the point, though certainly she could. "Though, I guess you wouldn't understand that one. You're not exactly the popular type, are you?" It was an unnecessary dig that Ari probably should have avoided, but sometime she couldn't help herself. When she was in an argument, things came out that she didn't always want to say.

An irritable frown rose on her face at Anna's comment. Sure, she could be a whore, but she wasn't that bad. Sort of. "Hey, hey. I sleep with plenty of hot women too. I don't discriminate," she said in her defense, as if somehow that would help make her habits more admirable. Ari had always been bisexual. It was just something that had happened and she had taken to without a second thought. For her, it was natural and she liked it that way, even if plenty of people seemed to disagree with it. "Of course there is. They can't be muggles, they can't be boring and they sure as hell can't suck at sex," Ari added with a nod, since obviously those were the important things that she was leaving out originally and precisely what Anabelle was getting at with her comment.

Ari certainly didn't see why anyone wouldn't want to be just like her. She was kind of awesome, obviously. However, Anabelle's tone didn't quite sit well with her and it was quite obvious that she wasn't being serious. "No need to be a bitch, love. I get it, you're mad. I left and that was a bitch of a thing to do, but I had my reasons, you know. It wasn't like I just woke up one day and decided, 'you know what, fuck it, I'm done with my family.'" Ari said, her voice coming out almost as a low growl. Sometimes, without her realizing it, she tended to almost act more like a wolf in her daily life. It was supposedly something to be expected, but the odd growling and the fact that her room was now more like a den than anything was a bit strange for her to get used to. Even if the change itself was just one night, the side effects that it had on her daily life were more than she'd ever realized were possible.

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[annabelle]

Anna glared at Ari. Was she serious? Anna wasn't the popular type! And Ari was? Sure Anna didn't have a huge amount of friends but she had really close friends that was better than having admirers. "Sorry I can't be extreemely popular like you." Anna said sarcastically. "But having the friends that I have is all I need. I don't want everyone loving me. I have the satisfactory of knowing that I have those friends that truly care for me." Anna said calmly. She wanted to pretend not to be offended by what her sister just said. Anna knew Ari was more popular and prettier than her. But Anna also knew that she was smarter and kinder than Ari. And that counted a lot more than looks. People truly liked Anna for who she was. And if they didn't then that was their problem. She wasn't going to waste time trying to please everyone.

Anna realized Ari was even more shallow than she thought. Anna wasn't huge on pureblood beliefs. She knew muggles were people too and should be treated like people. And no one was boring. It was whether or not they were wild and crazy. There was something interesting about everyone. Like Anna for example. Many think she's uptight. But she is just responsable but she could have a good sense of humor. Anna had to give her sister credit for not judging bisexuals and homosexuals. "Of course you don't discriminate. That's why you refuse to be near a muggle or a Gryffindor." Anna said. She knew Ari probably didn't approve of Anna's Gryffindor friends or her muggleborn friends. Ari probably didn't even approve of her being a smart little Ravenclaw.

Anna raised her eyebrows when Ari mentioned her acting like a bitch. "Wonder where I got that from?" she asked her sister. But she actually listened to what Ari explained. She was sort of surprised that Ari actually acknowledged it as a bitchy thing to do. Ari did have her reasons. Reasons which was not Anna's business. And it wasn't like it was overnight. It happened gradually. They just grew apart. Anna did feel a bit guilty about how she acted. Maybe she was the selfish one. But she knew the right thing to do was to make things right again. To apologize or come to an understanding with her sister. She was angry enough. She just wanted to calm down.

She sighed. "Ari, I know that you didn't decided it to happen overnight. And you ending contact with us was sort of selfish. But personally, I think I have been more selfish. I shouldn't have been extreemely mad at you. I haven't seen you in a while. I don't want to spend this whole year fighting with you. Can we at least try to get along?" Anna asked gently and softly. Part of her meant it. But the other part of her was saying forget the bitch and move on. That she didn't need to waste time one Ari since she never wasted time on Anna.

[ariella evelyn davies]

Even though she was trying to push Anabelle to a breaking point, it was a lot harder than she had anticipated. With most of the other people that she had driven from her life, it wasn't difficult. With them, it was simply just a few short words and they were gone, leaving Ari feeling slightly bad about it, but not to the point where she would dwell on the bad feelings that she was having about it. This, however, was different. Anabelle, despite being everything that Ari was not, actually mattered to Ari. She was the "saving grace" of the family and Ari wanted nothing more than for her to succeed and actually make something of her life. Sure, Ari had the fame, the fortune and anything she could ask for, but it wasn't the same. Anabelle had the capability to actually make a difference with what she did, not just donate to a few charities with the extra money that otherwise would have sat about doing nothing or gone to alcohol. That, however, wasn't something Ari would ever dream of sharing with her Anabelle, as that could only make things harder on her to let her go. The less that Anabelle assumed Ari felt about her, the better. If she were to have any semblance of a clue that Ari held her in such high regard, any attempts that Ari was making to distance the two would be that much more difficult.

She bit at her lip a bit when Anabelle went into the whole "truly caring friends" speech, as it was and probably always would be, a sore spot for Ari. She used to have those people, the ones that she could trust with anything any everything, the ones that she would do anything for at the drop of a hat...but, they were gone. Ari had, over the course of six months, uprooted her entire life. Everyone that she'd cared about, gone and that was how it had to be in her mind. Her being close to them put them at risk and that was a scary thought. In her own, twisted way, this effort to rid herself of any serious relationships was her way of showing everyone that she cared about them, about their lives. "Yeah, well. Sometimes it's just easier to have admirers and not friends," Ari said, rather cryptically. Certainly, she had an abundance of admiring fans and they were the ones she talked to, the ones that she hung around. It kept her going, in a time where it wasn't like she had much going for her.

Ari's pureblooded mentality was something born from her years as a Slytherin. She was one of the pureblooded, hotshit, Quidditch stars and, inevitably, she had fallen into that role of Queen bitch early on. Even if, now, she was a little more open to things, it was hard to throw off the years of conditioning that she had gone through. It was also why it was hard for her to accept the fact that she didn't belong in that world anymore. She was, by the standards that she held, a half-breed. She was filthy, disgusting and in her mind, she didn't deserve to live. Werewolves were some of the scum of society; a race that was so far gone from the human spectrum that they deserved to be eradicated. And now, she was one of them. It was, perhaps, a bit of karmic retribution for the years that she'd spent as that judgmental, racial purist.

However, with her Quidditch years, there was a time where she had started to change. Her team wasn't just the Slytherins anymore and yet, she had cared about them like they were her own family. Actually, at times it seemed like she'd cared about her team more than her own family. They were the ones that she shared blood, sweat and tears with and hell, she couldn't have cared less what house they were from. "You know, my mates on the team...one of them was a muggleborn Gryffindor and she was my best mate. Hell, we even slept together a few times and I didn't die of digsust," Ari replied with an almost wistful look. Of course, that too was now in the past, as she had even started to push away her team. The last lifeline that she had to the world that she once knew and that was it, she was simply giving up on them and the bond that they had shared. To them, it seemed completely out of character for Ari and prior to her attack, it would have been.

It was hard for Ari told hold back the sharp, barking laugh that threatened to come when Anna commented on the fact that Ari had more or less called her a bitch. Yeah, Ari had no right to talk when it came to that. She, more than likely, had been the biggest influence to the darker side of Anabelle's character traits, a fact which Ari hated with every passing moment. She didn't want to be that influence on Anna. On everyone else, sure, but not on her own sister. She was supposed to be something different, something better. Honestly, she wanted Anabelle to go on to be the exact opposite of what she was. As much confidence as she exuded, she wouldn't have wished her lot on anyone else. It was hellishly fun, sure, but it was also a lot of damn work keeping up appearances all the time.

Anabelle's last few statements may have gone over well and some conclusion met had she not used the word selfish. To Ari, what she was doing was the furthest thing from that. To give up, more or less, all the things that meant something to her in life, just so that she could protect them from herself, it was an act of complete selflessness. Of course, no one could see that without being clued in to her newfound status as a werewolf and Ari knew that. She knew that people would get hurt, that they would come to hate her for the things that she had to do, but in the end it was worth it. To know that she had done everything in her power to keep herself from hurting those people that she cared for, it was all that she could ask for at that point and it was her last solace.

Sighing slightly, Ari looked down at the lake with a heavy, serious gaze. "It was for your own benefit, you know. You may not understand that, but it was," she offered. Hardly an excuse and certainly not enough to redeem herself in the eyes of anyone, especially her younger sister, but it was all that she could give without giving up that secret that would continue to eat away at her. "But uh, yeah. I don't want to fight, but I think...that it may be best if we continue to just...avoid things like this. Seeing each other won't do either of us any favors," she finished. Again, another rather cryptic response to Anabelle's questions that Ari really didn't expect her to accept. However, she didn't know how else to go about this and still feel like she was doing the right thing.

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[annabelle]

Anna nodded. She could see how having admirers would be easier. There was less fights and pain involved. But at the end it had to be lonely. No one who truly listened to what you said and was actually honest with you. "It might be the easiest thing but it can't be the most satisfying thing." Anna told her sister. Last time Anna checked Ari had tons of friends. Friends that wouldn't be considered admirers. What happened to those people? Anna never saw any of them anymore. She wanted to ask what happened to all of Ari's old friends. But maybe that was a subject that Ari wasn't ready to touch. Something that was a sensitive subject. Something Anna couldn't just bring up until they were actually on good terms.

Anna heard what Ari told her about being best mates with a Gryffindor muggleborn girl. "Oh." Anna said quietly blushing of embarassment. She definately didn't see that one coming. She didn't disapprove or judge, it was just sort of a shock. "I'm sorry just the last time I saw you blood purity was extreemely important and so was house rivalry. I guess that changed." she said. Anna did feel sort of proud of Ari. The fact that she got over those stupid pureblood beleifs. But maybe Anna was getting ahead of herself. She knew that when you were on a team they were like family. Maybe it was only one girl Ari actually liked and the rest of them she hated.

Anna smirked as Ari laughed at her saying she was getting the bitchiness from Ari. She had to give a small smile at the situation. Learning from Ari and acting like her wasn't the best thing to do. Ari wasn't exactly the best influence. But Anna always had a cruel side deep inside. It only came out with her temper or when she had a huge dislike for someone. But using that anger and bitchiness on her sister out of all people was sort of upsetting. Anna didn't remember ever getting that mad before. And there she was in rage with her very own sister. Her sister, as annoying and a pain she was, was still her sister. And Anna knew she had to love her. It was like she had no choice. Because no matter how much she tried not to care she still did. She cared about everything.

Anna looked at her sister in concern. She was actually serious. She seemed genuinely upset and sorry. "What won't I understand? It may not seem like it but I know a lot Ari. I know that the world isn't an innocent place. That things happen and tear things apart. So what happened?" Anna asked her. The curiousity was killing her. Ari was being so mysterious. Anna was feeling scared for her sister. She had to find out what was being hidden. Ari mentioned how it would be better if they just avoid each other. "That's sort of hard considering we are both going to be staying here. You know if you ever need to talk I'm here for you." Anna said trying to get Ari's trust.

[ariella evelyn davies]

As much as Ari loved her fans being around, she couldn't deny that sometimes it wasn't as satisfying. Sure, they claimed to love her and what not, but they didn't share a deep bond with her at all and yeah, that kind of did suck sometimes. However, Ari wasn't sure that it was worth it to take the risk that would come with keeping her serious friends around. "Mm, it's not so bad," Ari said simply, not implying how she felt either way. It wasn't something that she wanted to really delve into, especially not right now and with her younger sister. It was best, perhaps, if Anabelle continued to think the worst of her. Though, it was quite difficult for Ari to really just let that happen. She hated when people disliked her and to attempt to purposely make people dislike her was something that she certainly wasn't taking well to. Yet, at the same time, she didn't want to fail at that and accidentally end up killing someone. That would be something that she couldn't live with herself for.

The rather shocked look that Anabelle got was reason enough for Ari to snort a bit in laughter. "Yeah, I'm not a total elitist bitch, yaanno," she pointed out. That wasn't entirely true, to be honest, as it still took some time for Ari to accept muggleborns and Gryffindors into her circle of friends or lovers. However, she was at least a little better in that regard than she had been previously in life. Though, that hadn't done anything to change her feelings on muggles. To Ari, that was probably something that would never go away. Even if she was learning to be more open in regard to blood status and houses, she couldn't let herself drop to the level where she thought of muggles as worth the space. She was still an elitist bitch, even if she was slightly less so than previously.

Things happen. An interesting choice of words, as it touched into just the place that Ari didn't want to go. She had been both literally and figuratively torn apart by what had happened and that just wasn't something a person recovered from. Some people claimed that they had come to terms with the fact that they're a werewolf, but Ari was pretty sure that was just bullshit to make themselves feel better. No one could just be okay with it. It sucked. It was a source of constant worry, self-hatred and pain. Not only did it bring about the physical pain of the change each month, but also the emotional pain of having to deal with the fact that you were now inferior. Even the wizards that were of lower blood statuses discriminated against werewolves, with the official term being "tainted." From being a pureblood to now being labeled as tainted, it was hard, especially for someone like Ari.

Ari didn't even know how to being explaining things. Of course, whatever it was wouldn't be the truth, but an outright lie was dangerous to let loose. Especially considering the fact that Anabelle was a Ravenclaw and could probably easily start to watch and research Ari's general symptoms. "Yeah, let's just say I got pretty fucked up and leave it at that. You don't want the gory details," Ari replied, giving as little detail as she could, but hopefully enough that it wouldn't lead to further questions. Maybe. Certainly, she had plenty of battle scars from that night, though fortunately most of them were kept well hidden on a normal day. Of course, it was a well known fact that Ari was pretty scarily scarred, considering the number of people that had hit up the tabloids with that sort of thing. Fortunately, however, they accepted the story that most of her scars were from Quidditch incidents and insofar, no one had even guessed at the real story.

Knowing that she was going to be there for, presumably, most of the next year with Anabelle right there was a difficult thought to stomach. Not because she didn't like her sister, but because that was dangerous. Being that close to her all the time could lead to issues that Ari wasn't about to confront with her, or anyone else. "Might be..." she mumbled, though she was fairly confident that she was stubborn enough to find a way to avoid her. "Mm, talking could be just as dangerous," Ari muttered, her voice straining to keep any sort of intonation out of it. It wasn't easy for the young woman to keep secrets and the more she talked, the more likely it was that things would come out. That was just how she was and she had to constantly watch herself.

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